This is something that I would wear. It does everything fat Jackie needs it to do: Cover arm fat? Check. Open in front to avoid buttons for fear of popping one: Check. Layers: Check. Show off the girls a bit (still in the mindset from high school that they're my best asset): Check.
My point is, I want to be more than a sweater with a pair of boobs sticking out! I want to be able to wear things that are fun. I'm 23. Yes, I'm going to be a teacher and I need to dress professionally, but I also want to be able to let loose and wear things on the weekends that normal 23 year olds wear. I want to be able to buy a pair of skinny jeans. I'd kill to wear a sweater dress with some leggings and a pair of Uggs (tried it-damn knee fat). I'd love to be able to wear something like this...
...without having to worry about a fatty checklist.
So, perhaps I'm going through some sort of identity crisis, I don't know. But, since I can't present myself the way I want to just yet, at least I can present my virtual-self in an appealing way. Did anyone else have issues with identity or is anyone else going through the same thing? It's so weird and I just feel like I don't know what to do about it. The only way that I've found to physically express myself is with my nail art. I'm not that good at make up. I'm practicing though. My hair is awful-curly frizzy mess. And I know I'm supposed to love myself no matter what and I at least like myself for the person that I am, I just wish I could enjoy the outside as much as the inside.
Sorry I was such a Debbie Downer in this one. It wasn't my intention when I sat down and started writing. I guess it's good to get it all off my chest though. I hope everyone has a great week. See you all again on Thursday for weigh in, if not sooner.