Thursday, October 27, 2011

Week 12

Well, I had a fantastic week (food-wise) and it definitely showed on the scale this morning. Weigh in was 232.1. That's a loss of 2.4 lbs from last week and 32.3 since surgery!! Finally at 30 pounds down! So excited. I've been eating things I would probably consider weird if I'd not had surgery--meals consisting of random lean lunch meats, string cheese...actually, that's about it, aside from green beans the other day and protein shakes for breakfast. Oh well. It paid off :)
And thanks to Ronnie and Trisha for their comments on my last post. I can definitely get down with some fruit and nuts.
I've had some weird food/body related thoughts lately. About a week or so ago, I was being cranky and told Ben that everyone hates me and blah blah blah, then I thought about "Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, guess I'll go eat worms." I don't know about everyone else, but I heard this from a young age. Granted, we don't actually see worms as "food", but does this perhaps teach us that it's okay to make food our friend? No, I'm not blaming this little tune for my out of control weight. That was my fault. Just something to think about.
Another thing I was thinking of today was umbrellas. It's been rainy here for the past couple days, and I just think it would be really nice to be able to fit my whole body under a standard sized umbrella. Does anyone else think about this kind of thing? I mean, it's really crappy to walk to class, sit down, and find out my butt's wet because it doesn't fit under the umbrella. Oh, the annoyances of being fat. Oh well, one of these days, it'll be different.
And speaking of walking to class, I'm off to be scholarly. Hope everyone has a great day!


Monday, October 24, 2011


So, I'm in need of some suggestions. I'm supposed to be having 1100-1200 calories and 60-80 grams of protein per day. My NP told me to cut out bread, pasta, and rice and just eat protein rich foods and veggies and sometimes fruits. I've been eating things like chicken, lean lunch meat, green beans, protein shakes, and for a snack, string cheese. My problem is that I'm getting enough protein from 3 meals and a string cheese, but everything's so low cal that I'm not getting enough calories. Today, for example, I had a protein shake w/ canned pumpkin added (203 cal, 35 protein), lunch was 4 oz canned chicken, 2 tbsp bbq sauce and 3/4 c green beans sauteed in 1 tsp olive oil (235cal, 21 protein), and dinner was 2 things of string cheese (160 cal, 12 protein) since I had class. That's a total  of 598 calories and 68 grams of protein. It's a problem, because I'm sustained on the meals that I ate. I don't want to eat more calories just for the sake of eating more calories, but I know that I have to do something so my body doesn't think it's starving. So, my question to you is, what tips do you have to add extra calories to food without adding bread, rice, or pasta? I also am not much of a condiment person...won't do mayo or sour cream. Any advice would be appreciated. Hope everyone had a great weekend, and here's to a good week ahead.


Saturday, October 22, 2011

Fill Number 2 and (Late) Week 11 Weigh In

So, like I said in the last post, I forgot to weigh myself Thursday morning because I was running crazy late for school. So, Friday, I went to the dentist, then went to the hospital for my second fill appointment. I had a different lady than last time. She was nicer, more laid back, and more informative, but she had a harder time finding my port. It kind of hurt when she was pushing on my belly, but I got by. Anyway, she weighed me and their scale (which is usually higher than my scale) said 234.5! I'm so excited to have lost 1 pound from last week. I would have preferred to lose 1.1 lbs because that would have gotten me to the magic 30 pound mark, but, that's okay. Good things come to those who wait. I'll just have to keep doing what I did last week and it'll work out for me. I'm pretty excited because I only have 14 more pounds to lose until I reach the weight I was at high school graduation and when I met Ben. I'm pretty well motivated right now, and that makes me quite happy :) Now I'm off to read all of your wonderful blogs. Hope everyone's having a great weekend!


Thursday, October 20, 2011

Week 11

First, I just want to say thank you for everyone who commented on my last post. Your comments are always appreciated and, as I'm sure you all know, it's really nice to hear how well you're doing from other people.

This is supposed to be weigh in day, but, I had class this morning and was running late and forgot to weigh myself before I got in the shower. Stupid, I know. But, I go for my second fill tomorrow (yay!) so, I'll let you know what their scale says. Sorry I've been a bad blogger, but I've been reading (and commenting, when I can). I just don't have time for a lot right now. It's lame. So, on that note, going to go do some school work.
Hope everyone's doing well


Friday, October 14, 2011

Week 10 and comparison pics!

Well, yesterday was weigh in day. I had a terribly undeserved loss of .2 lb. I'm not sure how it happened, but I'll take it and not have another weekend like that. I terribly overindulged myself. No more.

Today I did my first Zumba-related anything. I found full workout videos online for free, which is better for me than going to a class. To check these videos out, click here. It was interesting. I just did the basic work out, but I worked up a bit of a sweat. I also had Ben take comparison pics, as promised. So, here they are.

The first three are from the night before surgery, August 3, 2011. 264.4 lb.

These three are from today, October 14, 2011. 236.5 lb.

I'm in shock. I just looked at these pictures side by side for the first time and I can't believe it. This makes me feel amazing. If these pictures aren't motivation, I don't know what is. This is the only way I've been able to see a difference in my body. I'm so glad I took those before pictures. I wish I could report that my clothes are falling off me, but, I've stuffed myself into a lot of the same clothes for 5 years (when I went from 220s to 270s--gross, I know) so now I'm just starting to fit back into my clothes comfortably, which is also nice.

Thanks, ladies, for all your support. You've been great. I appreciate every single comment.

Have a great weekend, everybody.


Wednesday, October 12, 2011


Old McDonald had a farm, e i e i o.
And on that farm he had a...Cow? Pig? Oh wait, it's just Jackie.

Yeah, I've been the worst bandster ever. It started over the weekend. There was ice cream involved...twice. The first one was at Sonic. Did anyone else know how giant their hot fudge sundaes are? They're pretty huge. So, mom slept over on Friday and then Saturday after work, mom, Ben and I went back to mom's to wash her walls. Well, I came home from work and had something (healthy, but I forget what it was) to eat. So, we're merrily driving along when they decide they want to stop at Sonic. Okay, cool, I'll just get some ice cream because I really want some and I don't want to be deprived. So, I get this freaking HUGE hot fudge sundae. And if that wasn't bad enough, I got a corn dog, too. Don't even know why. But, there's been a lot of "I don't know why I'm eating this" going on the past few days. Sunday, we went to Costco and I was planning on having a meal of free samples but we went in the evening so I guess they were done. But, we were hungry, so we had something from their restaurant. I got a carne asada bake and ate half of it, along with half a churro. Monday, I went to DQ because I just had to have a pumpkin pie Blizzard. Little did I know that the mini size packed a whopping 370 calories. Stupid decision. I don't know why I waited until after I ate it to check the calorie content. Yesterday wasn't terrible, but today, I've eaten a chicken burrito, 7 ling ling pot stickers, and 2 (unmeasured) bowls of cereal. I'm not planning on eating for the rest of the day because I have a night class and I'm just going to take my protein shake with me and have that. But seriously, what is wrong with me? I feel like such an idiot for eating the way I have been. TOM just got here today and I could blame it on that, but I'd just be making excuses. Sigh. It's the first time I've seen TOM since May. I'm not sure if I've ever mentioned this, but since I got so fat, I don't get a period unless I'm on the pill, which I've been avoiding due to surgery, but started up again last month. I hope I get to a weight some day that my body will regulate itself. Oh, and I haven't been to the gym this week because it's midterms and I have so much homework to do. I really shouldn't even be writing this right now. I should  be typing my essay for Shakespeare class. It's kind of due tonight. Oh well. I feel really bad. We're for sure going to the gym tomorrow though. I can't miss another day of it. I guess I'll finish up that essay.
Hope everyone's having a great day.


P.S. Almost forgot- My camera batteries finally came in the mail yesterday, so my camera's back in working order :)  going to have Ben take comparison pics tonight and I'll post them tomorrow with my weigh in.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Week 9

Week 9 weigh in and the results are...  236.7! YAY!! It's so nice to be sitting comfortably in the 230s. Hopefully by my next fill on the 21st, I'll be in the 220s. I'd be crazy happy if that were the case. I'm so excited because the little pink flower on my ticker is all the way off of the third purple flower on the measurement line thingie. By the time I finally found out how to get a ticker I'd lost enough weight to have the pink flower covering that third purple flower, so this is pretty exciting for me. And thanks everyone for the comments on my last post. It's great to have your support and encouragement.
I've got a busy weekend ahead of me. Work tomorrow, then lunch with my mom, then an editing project for my Shakespeare class and probably heading to the gym. Saturday, work, then going to my mom's with Ben to help her wash her walls. My good friend, Lauren, is buying the house next door to my mom's apartment complex and tomorrow's her moving day, so hopefully I'll see her. She's lost 40 pounds since April, au natural. So excited for her :)
Then, my other friend may or may not be having a Halloween party Saturday night. She's very pregnant and her doctor just told her last week that she might be 38 weeks along instead of 36, so, she's not sure whether or not she'll be having a party.
Sunday, it's going to be nice in Pittsburgh, so I'm going to get my tulip, hyacinth, and crocus bulbs in and plant my mums, weed the garden, and Ben's going to till the area for the future veggie patch. Hopefully I can get him to tackle the shed and find my fall/Halloween decorations so I can put them up, too.

That being said, I probably won't be posting again til next week, so I hope everyone has a great weekend!


Tuesday, October 4, 2011

2 Months Out

I wish I had something totally epic to say, but I really don't. I can't believe how much weight is already gone forever from my poor little 5'2" body. Before I had the surgery, I'd read blogs that talked about the fear of putting on all the weight back on overnight and I just kind of brushed it off and thought it was a silly thought. But, for the ladies who've posted about that, I totally understand now. It's amazing what this surgery can do to the mind. That's something I'll have to work on.
I ordered a new battery for my camera, hopefully that'll be the solution and the camera itself isn't damaged. But, as soon as I get batteries for that or get my mom's camera working (cause she's totally awesome and doesn't understand technology so she gave it to me) I'll be posting 2 month pictures. Here are my measurements that I had Ben take a few days ago:

Bust: 49.5 (-.5)
Under Boobs: 40.5 (-3)
Waist: 53.5 (-4)
Place where I wear my pants: 52 (-4)
Hips: 54 (-1)

I didn't feel like doing the arms and legs, quite honestly, but those look like some pretty okay numbers to me. So far, I'm really pleased with my progress in numbers, but I'm having trouble seeing the changes in myself. I feel like I'm a little girl again and there's something exciting going on and I'm saying "I can't see, I can't see!" I don't think daddy can pick me up and put me on his shoulders to help, either. I'm really antsy about getting one of these cameras working because maybe in the comparison pics, I'll be able to notice a difference.
Well,  I'm tired and I'm going to bed. Hope everyone has a great day and thanks for everyone who's been posting about BOOBs. Looks like it was a blast.

Good night, all.