Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Lost

Due to a series of events, I've not posted my one year update. This isn't it; I don't have pictures because my camera got messed up. I also don't feel as though I'm in the right mental state to create the literary masterpiece that I wish to be my one year post.

Anyway, the title of this post is "Lost" because that's how I've been feeling. Consumed with schoolwork, I've been having a terrible time with motivating myself to continue to eat right and exercise. I haven't been blogging or keeping up with reading blogs and I hate when I let myself do that. Every so often, I disappear from my blog for a while. I think I might take a scheduled hiatus until I get myself back in order.

I started student teaching on the 27th and so far I'm really enjoying it. I found out that the teacher who had WLS is actually in the classroom right next door to me and she's been extremely kind and helpful, both academically and on the weight loss front. I had a talk with her today about lack of motivation and so I think she's going to be keeping an eye on me for accountability. I might start exercising with my cooperating teacher after school. We'll see. Anyway, the teacher next door had gastric bypass in December of 2009. Her highest was 319 and she's currently at 167. She looks great. I hope I can get myself turned around. I've been struggling for so long now. I know exactly what I need to do, I just need to actually do it. I'm rambling. I'll try catching up on blogs asap. I love and miss you all.

xoxo

7 comments:

RockBand Barbie said...

Glad to hear you are enjoying student teaching. I loved one of my placements and hated the other...I felt overwhelmed during both. My brain was fried at the end of each day and looking back, I don't think I could have ever even thought about keeping up with a blog.

Ronnie said...

I love that you have such a great support system at work. I love that the other WLS gal has been so successful. Let her be motivation for you. :)

Also, get back to blogging. =P

Chris said...

We're here when you need us, Jackie - and very glad to hear that you're enjoying the student teaching and have a good WLS buddy right next door!

Ronnie's right - let her be a motivating presence for you!

jennxaz said...

that is awesome to have the support at work. I agree with Ronnie keep on blogging, they don't have to be long but they reaffirm each time you do it what your goal is..and maybe you need to keep it in the forefront of your mind!

Elizabeth said...

Keep bloggin!! It is hard, i know.... I struggled with the same feelings after a year. Email me if you need anything!!

Hang in there!

trishajo said...

blogging keeps me centered. I don't know why, or how. But it does.

And even I still stack off ALL the time... like NOW. lol :)

mdlapband said...

Hey girl! I've been in the same boat. It's ok, don't beat yourself up. It's life, full of ups and downs and getting that motivation back is tough. Just pray for it, it'll show back up. Don't take a hiatus from the blogs, reading other successes might help you to remember how it felt when you were going strong! I know it guilts me into getting back slowly but surely. I'll be thinking about you :)