Finally Back in the Right Direction (week 51)

Last week's fill plus logging my food has really helped with the weight loss. I'm down to 213.4, which is the lowest I've seen on the scale since we've been back from vacation...in MAY. 3.1 pounds down from last week and only 5 more pounds to go to reach my all-time low, so I'm pretty excited about that. I really feel like I got a good fresh start with this time and I don't want to screw it up this time.
I think I'm going to go to my first Jazzercise class next week. I was waiting for my sister-in-law to be able to go with me, but she's busy, so maybe I'll just go by myself. Unless Chris would want to go with me.

In other news, I met with my cooperating teacher for student teaching yesterday. It went well. She seems really cool. She wants me to be as independent in the classroom as possible and she's even letting me have a say in the rules and procedures for the semester. I'm starting to get excited. The school is pretty nice. What I really liked about it was that each year, they have their senior art students paint their own murals on the walls. We're talking floor to ceiling student artwork. It was awesome. There was abstract art, unicorns, sports jerseys, the pink panther...anything and everything the students could imagine. It's so great. I told my teacher about my WLS because I want to make sure I'm able to have snacks and water with me in the classroom. She said that would be fine because she brings stuff all the time. She also said that another woman in the English department had WLS. Might have to make friends with her. All in all, it seems like it'll be a really good experience. I'm really starting to feel like I'm ready for this :)

I've got a busy weekend ahead: brother's birthday's the 29th and daddy's is the 31st, so I'll be doing that, plus (hopefully) spending some coupons at Fashion Bug. So sad they're going out of business. Not sure if I'll be working this weekend as the woman I work for was admitted to the hospital. Hope she's ok. She's been having some heart problems. If she's not out for my shift with her tomorrow, I'm going to call my company to see if I'm allowed to visit her. I've been working for her for about a year and a half now and we've gotten pretty close. If this is her time, I'd just like to be able to say goodbye, which I don't think is too much to ask. But, hopefully she's ok and she'll be out of the hospital soon. Anyway, hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

xoxo

Week 50

50 weeks to the day since my lap band surgery. Weird. So, I had my appointment with the P.A. this morning. She didn't get on me too bad about not having been there in a long time. She was a lot less upset with me than I expected. I told her about how my low was 208 around Easter and then with finals and vacation, I gained 8 pounds and I've been more or less maintaining that since we got back. Told her that I wanted to lose more weight before I came back to see her and that's why I wasn't in sooner, but then I wasn't losing the weight and so I decided it was probably better to come in and be honest with her rather than be stuck at this stupid weight (216.5 on my scale while naked, 219 on theirs, clothed *side note: does your scale differ from the one at your doctor's office? which do you go by?). She said that was good and if I start to gain again, she's the first person I should talk to. I took my food log to her and she seems to think one of the big reasons for my stall is that I was getting too much fat. Now, I feel really stupid about this because it seems so obvious, but no one ever told me an amount of fat that I was supposed to stay under, nor was I ever told to count it. I've just been doing calories and protein. Since she mentioned it it seems like I should have been doing it the whole time and I feel silly, but I didn't know. Oh well. I'm now to stay under 30 grams of fat per day. I'm also eating too many carbs, she said. Will work on it.

We didn't talk much about exercise. I told her about our 4 mile hike while we were camping and how it killed my feet. She told me to invest in a good pair of shoes. She recommended a pair for $190.00. Yeah. Like hell. And she said they need to be replaced every 6 months or 300 miles. HA. Absolutely no way. It just seems preposterous. Maybe when I get a big girl job, but even then, not likely. I was surprised that she actually gave me a fill today. I got .5ccs bringing me up to a total of 3.2. I'm on liquids for two days, then two days of soft then back to regular. She wants to see me back in 4 weeks with my food journal, so I have an appointment on August 17th, 10 days before I start student teaching.

And speaking of student teaching, my teacher called me last night and we talked for about a half hour. She seems pretty awesome. She's going to meet me at the high school this Wednesday so that she can show me the school and introduce me to the administration so that I don't die of fright the first day. I thought that was really nice of her. And she's going to give me a textbook, too, so I can become familiar with it. She said we'd be doing Arthur Miller's The Crucible, for sure. I'm good with that because I read it in 11th grade and they have it on Netflix and I actually just watched it about a month ago. Plus, I feel like some really cool assignments can come from the Salem Witch Trials. I've always been interested in that part of America's history. So, I guess things are falling into place. Can't believe I'm graduating in December. That's all for now. I hope you're all having a fabulous week!

xoxo

Nerves

I'm feeling really nervous today. I have my appointment tomorrow with the P.A. I haven't seen since February. I'm hoping she's not too terribly upset with me, but I'm so afraid that she'll think I'm not taking this seriously. All I can do is wait. At least the appointment is for 8:00am so I won't be making myself sick with worry all day tomorrow. I'm hoping even for just a tiny fill so that I can comfortably be on liquids for two days and get a jump start on reaching my Onederland goal set for August 27th (my first day of student teaching).

Speaking of student teaching, I got my placement and I'll be doing 11th grade English at a high school that's only about 15 minutes from my house. Pretty pumped about that. Oh and I did some Facebook stalking research on my cooperating teacher that I'll be working with and it turns out she's the head of the English department for the school. It makes me nervous, but it could be a good thing working with her if they have any positions to fill after I graduate. I sent her an email to see if  there's anything I can do to prepare for the coming semester and she asked for my phone number so she can call me. I don't really care for talking on the phone. I'm worried I'll sound like an idiot. I'm so much better in print. Wish me luck?

I'll post about my appointment tomorrow as well as post a weigh in.

xoxo

Here's the Truth

Even after posting all sorts of things about how I've wanted to get back on track and stuff, I still was treating weekends as though they were free days. Well boys and girls, going into surgery I knew that I had to make a lifestyle change and I don't think I fully accepted that. No excuses this time. I'm on day 3 of logging my food and staying under calories. However, dear Auntie Flo just came to town so I was slightly disgruntled at only seeing a .4 pound loss from yesterday. At least it's in the right direction.

I'm kind of really scared because I have an appointment on the 19th with my p.a. whom I haven't seen since February. Pretty bad considering she wanted to see me back after 8 weeks, but things came up, excuses excuses excuses, and now here we are, almost to my one year bandiversary (August 4). At my last appointment, I told the p.a. that my goal for next time was to be under 210 so that (according to their chart) I'd only be obese instead of morbidly obese. Well, my low since then was 208, this morning I was at 216.6. I know I can get down to 210 by appointment day because when I start doing things right again, the weight comes off pretty fast. I'm just nervous that she's going to be mad at me for not being in Onederland or for not coming back soon enough. I don't want her to think that I'm not willing to put in the work. Even though I haven't been doing what I'm supposed to be doing, I'm back on the band wagon now and that's what matters, right? Has anyone else had this issue?

Random Stuff:

~I want to start blogging more. I miss it. I miss you. It felt so good when I finally got caught up on all of your blogs.
~I'm trying a recipe for cauliflower pizza crust tonight. I've never  had cauliflower before. I'll let you know how it goes.
~I want to send many thanks to Trisha, Robyn, Beth, and Jen for their super sweet comments on my last  blog post when I was being a Debbie Downer.
~You should go visit Cece. She could use some love.
~Just tasted the cauliflower pizza-a bit sticky. I'd recommend cooking on parchment, but absolutely edible. I'd even go as far as to call it tasty. Think I like it better than tortilla pizzas. Thanks, Pinterest.

Hope everyone's well!

xoxo