Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Here's the Truth

Even after posting all sorts of things about how I've wanted to get back on track and stuff, I still was treating weekends as though they were free days. Well boys and girls, going into surgery I knew that I had to make a lifestyle change and I don't think I fully accepted that. No excuses this time. I'm on day 3 of logging my food and staying under calories. However, dear Auntie Flo just came to town so I was slightly disgruntled at only seeing a .4 pound loss from yesterday. At least it's in the right direction.

I'm kind of really scared because I have an appointment on the 19th with my p.a. whom I haven't seen since February. Pretty bad considering she wanted to see me back after 8 weeks, but things came up, excuses excuses excuses, and now here we are, almost to my one year bandiversary (August 4). At my last appointment, I told the p.a. that my goal for next time was to be under 210 so that (according to their chart) I'd only be obese instead of morbidly obese. Well, my low since then was 208, this morning I was at 216.6. I know I can get down to 210 by appointment day because when I start doing things right again, the weight comes off pretty fast. I'm just nervous that she's going to be mad at me for not being in Onederland or for not coming back soon enough. I don't want her to think that I'm not willing to put in the work. Even though I haven't been doing what I'm supposed to be doing, I'm back on the band wagon now and that's what matters, right? Has anyone else had this issue?

Random Stuff:

~I want to start blogging more. I miss it. I miss you. It felt so good when I finally got caught up on all of your blogs.
~I'm trying a recipe for cauliflower pizza crust tonight. I've never  had cauliflower before. I'll let you know how it goes.
~I want to send many thanks to Trisha, Robyn, Beth, and Jen for their super sweet comments on my last  blog post when I was being a Debbie Downer.
~You should go visit Cece. She could use some love.
~Just tasted the cauliflower pizza-a bit sticky. I'd recommend cooking on parchment, but absolutely edible. I'd even go as far as to call it tasty. Think I like it better than tortilla pizzas. Thanks, Pinterest.

Hope everyone's well!

xoxo

4 comments:

Ronnie said...

Aw, I'm sorry I missed commenting on your last post, sweetie. I really did read it, but it must have been one of those times when I was super behind on blogs. :(

I'm sorry you've been having a tough time. We've all been there. I was there quite recently. You're back on the band wagon, that's all that matters.

It doesn't matter what some PA thought your weight should be, you're where you are. I doubt she'll scold you, but if she does tell her what you just told us. She'll understand. She's seen ALOT worse, trust me. :)

P.S. - Thanks so much for following my other blog. Means alot! Even if no one reads it, I like knowing someone's out there who did find it once. lol

Chris said...

Hey you - nice to see you posting, and hearing that you're getting yourself back on track!

Banded With Favor said...

Missed you...glad to see your post!!;)

trishajo said...

we miss you too girl! c'mon back! lol :)

this is a journey, and because of that they're ups downs and sideways times. if it didn't have those it would just be a success. but that doesn't exist. and we're stuck in reality. :)embrace that you're recognizing you want to make changes and that's the first step to making it happen! :)