Oink.

Old McDonald had a farm, e i e i o.
And on that farm he had a...Cow? Pig? Oh wait, it's just Jackie.

Yeah, I've been the worst bandster ever. It started over the weekend. There was ice cream involved...twice. The first one was at Sonic. Did anyone else know how giant their hot fudge sundaes are? They're pretty huge. So, mom slept over on Friday and then Saturday after work, mom, Ben and I went back to mom's to wash her walls. Well, I came home from work and had something (healthy, but I forget what it was) to eat. So, we're merrily driving along when they decide they want to stop at Sonic. Okay, cool, I'll just get some ice cream because I really want some and I don't want to be deprived. So, I get this freaking HUGE hot fudge sundae. And if that wasn't bad enough, I got a corn dog, too. Don't even know why. But, there's been a lot of "I don't know why I'm eating this" going on the past few days. Sunday, we went to Costco and I was planning on having a meal of free samples but we went in the evening so I guess they were done. But, we were hungry, so we had something from their restaurant. I got a carne asada bake and ate half of it, along with half a churro. Monday, I went to DQ because I just had to have a pumpkin pie Blizzard. Little did I know that the mini size packed a whopping 370 calories. Stupid decision. I don't know why I waited until after I ate it to check the calorie content. Yesterday wasn't terrible, but today, I've eaten a chicken burrito, 7 ling ling pot stickers, and 2 (unmeasured) bowls of cereal. I'm not planning on eating for the rest of the day because I have a night class and I'm just going to take my protein shake with me and have that. But seriously, what is wrong with me? I feel like such an idiot for eating the way I have been. TOM just got here today and I could blame it on that, but I'd just be making excuses. Sigh. It's the first time I've seen TOM since May. I'm not sure if I've ever mentioned this, but since I got so fat, I don't get a period unless I'm on the pill, which I've been avoiding due to surgery, but started up again last month. I hope I get to a weight some day that my body will regulate itself. Oh, and I haven't been to the gym this week because it's midterms and I have so much homework to do. I really shouldn't even be writing this right now. I should  be typing my essay for Shakespeare class. It's kind of due tonight. Oh well. I feel really bad. We're for sure going to the gym tomorrow though. I can't miss another day of it. I guess I'll finish up that essay.
Hope everyone's having a great day.

xoxo

P.S. Almost forgot- My camera batteries finally came in the mail yesterday, so my camera's back in working order :)  going to have Ben take comparison pics tonight and I'll post them tomorrow with my weigh in.